Finding my magic in the world of theatre saved my life.
Growing up, I was taught to blend in, to not be unique, to comply and obey. I was expected to measure up just to the middle, but never beyond. When I went into high-school, void of a true self-identity, I spiraled into a depression. I was socially awkward, without a circle of friends, and unsure of what I believed in.
In the middle of my 9th grade chaos, I walked into a semi-dark theatre one day. It was lunchtime, and hot in the way that September Southern California days tend to be, and I needed somewhere cool to eat my greasy school cafeteria pizza. I didn’t have grand plans for lunch period that day. What awaited inside, though, was something I never anticipated, a group of kids just as awkward, socially maladjusted and unsure of the world as me. But they were owning it; they were pure magic! They were theatre nerds. And I wanted to be just like each and every one of them. Becoming my own brand of theatre nerd literally changed my life – I was able to carve out my own individuality and grow my confidence and joy. My depression slipped away and I began to understand the world in a way that made sense for me. Theatre, the arts in general, literally saved my life.