I'm like this because when I was little my dad left and I had nobody my mom stopped trusting me so I left and now the hole I fought so hard to get out of I am slowly going back in and it hurts I feel alone in this hostile world and I just want someone to talk to because it is killing me and no one knows it.
Now I'm in high school I've been living with my older brother since middle school but you know all things happen for a reason and you don't know why my mom dropped me off at my brother house like I was some kind of box of clothes now she wants me to come to move back in like no fuck you, you put me out when I was 13 but I love her though and never going to stop loving her but that hurts.
when I left my mom told me that it was just till thing get straighten out but I kinda don't believe that because she never wants to talk to me but she tells my brother that it's not over its over next week and I'm confused
now its almost the end of the week and she said that I can come home now because it's over but I don't know what she talking about and with all this stuff going through my brain i am so confused about everything and its weird because I'm lost
now on to the next part of my life, I fucked up I was fucking my boyfriend and was thinking about somebody else and that somebody was one of my friends I was fooling around with before I got with him I feel so bad